If you have been reading my blog for the past week you know that I have been detoxing my body and mind.  Well over the past couple of days lots more clarity on what triggers me.   Not just my own emotions but those of the people around me that I love.  I find this extraordinarily interesting.   Here’s the big difference, when I get anxious my pattern is to reach for food, it calms me.  However, when people are upset around me, I want to feed them. YIKES! 

I have been going back in my memories to see if I can recall this occuring in my life.  My Mom was not a eat you’ll feel better person, but my Dad definitely ate through his stress.   I picked up his pattern, I am leaving that pattern daily. 

What I notice is how much I miss the act of cooking, it’s not so much the actual eating, but the cooking.  I love to cook, it has always been very calming for me.  It allows my creative juices to flow, it keeps me active and it takes my mind off of whatever is bothering me.  Over the past 10 years I have learned to cook very healthy, low calorie meals so it has worked out great. 

But and this is a big but, I have not cooked for anyone since last Wednesday and with emotions running wild due to the Detox I realize how much a part of my life cooking is.   I am truly loving how much I am learning and what is coming up during this process.  I hope that even if you don’t do as long or extreme a detox, I do really hope that you do some kind of detox. 

It has been a thrill so far and still no physical hunger, and not one headache either.  What a fabulous 8 days, I am looking forward to more feelings coming up and more learning.  It has truly been a wonderful experience so far.